Project: Spreading Love Is Priceless 
dA LoveIt's been a really rough week to say the least and to top it off, yesterday, I found out that a girl I went to grade school with, had passed away too. She was a day older than me and was quiet and sweet as could be.
She left behind 3 kiddos... Wow...So, to say the least, the funky 'tude I've been in, comes and goes. My Mom actually cried on the way to work yesterday. We are really trying to hang out with each other even more than before. At least... that's how I see it. I want to make sure she's doing alright, ya know?
I need to get this out, so bare with me. Since it's been almost a week, I wanted to let you in on our story...
On Tuesday of last week, my mom gets the call stating that her Aunt is in the hospital and they're not sure why, etc.
All they know is that she hadn't been eating for the past two days and such and so it was time to go see what went on. They said she had pneumonia again, too eventually. Apparently it wasn't completely gone to begin with. (She had had it earlier in the year.) So, they said they'd run an MRI and x-rays to get more answers. My Mom went back and forth with the idea of going. She knew that EG would want her to stay and finish out her work week. We all thought she would do what she usually does and get better and go back to the rehab/nursing facility she was in. That wasn't the case obviously.Ok, by Friday, my Mom had decided that we're going to go ahead and rush up there early in the morning. She would have left after work I'm pretty sure on Friday evening, but was way too tired, etc. So, we opted for this. Packed, went to bed and got up and started off with my Mom. It was just me and her of course. Everyone else had to work or something at that time, which is understandable. We can go and they can follow if need be.
We get to a point where we're half way across our state of IL..(about 3 hours from KY atm), when her phone rings. It's the hospital. They told me to let her know that EG wants the BIPAP mask off, because it's really hurting her. They told me, that if they did, she wouldn't last the rest of the day pretty much. I told my Mom to pull over and had them repeat. Then, she started to tear up and so did I. We told them to please let EG know we're coming as fast as we could and to hold on. To keep the mask on, we're coming. So, they did.
Btw, the hospital there where she was, is excellent. I've already sent an email off to them thanking them for everything... Really, they were so sweet, kind, warming... etc.
3 hours later...
We finally get to KY and rush to the hospital. We had to really look for a spot to park and we found one wayyyyy out there it seemed, but that's okay, too. Looking around at some of the staff dressed for Halloween... I kind of smiled. It didn't last long. We go up to the floor she's on and meet up with some family. We walk in to see her... and my heart skips a beat. You can tell she's in pain and they've been giving her pain meds to help. My Mom has POA over her and let them know she was here and the mask came off. So.. we sat there and talked to EG and stroked her hand and kissed her head and told her we were here and everything we could think of. It seemed to work after awhile. When our family members that were there, went ahead and left, they said give them a call and they'd rush back, otherwise they'd be back by 6...
After they left, she started to relax BIG time and calmed down and really tried to just breathe. We cried, teared up at times, etc. They made her last hours so peaceful and quiet and she wasn't hurting. There were signs that she was dying and things that I knew from a class or two and they let everyone know because it was asked of course... At 5:17pm (KY time), she left us... that's while we sang to her and kissed her and told her you can go if you want, we're here and you'll never be alone. And so she did. She left us and the sun came out. She left us and we mourn for her so much. I love her. I always will. After she passed, I took a picture. I hope you don't think that's morbid. I just felt I had to...and so I did.
That's pretty much how it went a week ago today. We were there. We were lucky and blessed enough to be there with her and her final moments and I wouldn't change that for anything in the world.
As for me... like I said, I'm still dealing/working on it. On the outside, I'm doing better and trying to hold up, but on the inside... my broken heart is still mending. I know what people have been saying to me on the different sites I'm on, etc. I do understand and everything. Everyone is different and I think the fact that this death hit soooooo close to home, just makes it harder is all.
So, thank you for reading and I'm sorry for making any of you all tear up or cry while reading this. I needed to talk about it. The best way I know how is here with my friends.
A few things before I go:
1. Thanks for all of the watches and favs. As usual and especially now, I get so many and I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate them. All of them. So, thank you.
2. My Winter Dreams Contest is still going on. If you have questions, just note me. Thank you.
3. I'll be back to normal soon. Well, I'm there, but I'm not there, ya know?
No worries, though. You all being here, is enough for me... Honest. 4. Thank you everyone for this past week. I don't know what I'd do without you all and I will get to the comments soon. That's pretty much all I have to get to atm.
5. Near the end, the doc comes up..or rather a couple of them stated that EG had ARDS. Had it for a couple of years..
Happy Happy Joy Joy... *insertsarcasmhere*Take care all.. more later....
,Jen
Tearful
I will have a new update later today I'm thinking...UPDATE:
Just trying to stay busy like I used to around here. I haven't changed. Lots of things in my life have for the better, definitely, so that make me being here so much easier now. 
I would love to see some pictures lol. 
ing my work and commenting!! It means a lot to me! 
Thanks
Oh, and we haven't left yet. Don't know if we are going to or not atm, either... 
Sadness
I have a dedication by a sweet friend. 
Jenepooh Rocz 
Hia~! 
What's your favorite part of Thanksgiving? (For all deviants...) *I know, I couldn't think of anything better atm...* 
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